Update? sure why not..

If you've got me on facebook, you'd know kind of what's been going on lately. Twitter, not so much ... as I've not really personally updated that in some time. So, how about a little update?

As I'd stated before, I have been going through a separation with my wife Victoria. We've been separated for some time now, and admittedly I was trying to repair it all. Though, through looking back at things and at my own feelings, there's nothing to repair. Our friendship just finally got to where it should have been from the start I suppose. Now I'm not saying that I didn't have a blast, nor do I regret being with her for so long and having 3 of the best behaved children their ages that I have seen ... anywhere. So, I'd been on this site called Plenty of Fish for some time, messaging many girls, trying to see if anyone would even be interested in talking to me at all.

About a month ago, a girl stated to the system that she wanted to meet me. I checked my profile's mailbox to find that she hadn't messaged me. So, I messaged her. She did in fact want to meet, and we were going to meet up and do a mini-golf thing... After messaging back and forth, it seemed that all she wanted was sex... which, while that's all fine and dandy... I'd rather not get that involved with someone just out of the blue without learning much about them. I tried to pry out some info from her, but she seemed reluctant to disclose anything. I went ahead and called the date off, telling her that I couldn't find a sitter...and well, she never replied back other than to say she couldn't find one either. So I suppose the feeling was mutual.

The following day I got one more girl that said they wanted to meet me. But I also got an actual message from someone else, stating they liked my profile. Seeing as this one actually took the time to go through and read my profile (which was quite long... much like how I write everywhere), I wrote her back. She was concerned about how far away I lived, and her profile stated she wanted to be able to spend time at least 3 times a week with whoever she were to try to start a relationship with. Unfortunately though, she is currently vehicle-less. The other big problem? The fact that she lives an hour and a half drive roughly from me.

We started chatting on the PoF site for a bit until it started being stupid, so we started actually texting. Things were discussed and we opened up to each other, answering any and all questions. Everything felt so perfect. So, I agreed to get down to her at least to see how the actual chemistry would work out. Now, I'll say that I've got some ... unique things in my mind that happened when I was younger (namely in dreams... yea strange) ... When I got there and a scene opened before me that I remembered seeing such a long time ago...and I knew things were perfect. We went in to her place, watched some movies, cuddled and all the good stuff. Nothing was really planned other than watching movies and cuddling...so we were both very happy about it going so well.

Everything was so great I really didn't want to leave. But I knew I needed to get home so that I could make sure the kids got up for the bus in the morning, and because Victoria didn't have an alarm set to do it herself. Since that date at her place went on, we've spent time on the phone, and texting a lot. I also managed to get time just this past week to get back down there and do much the same as last time, this time the movies were ones I brought. We only watched one movie really, then spent a while cuddling and stuff before I needed to go so that I wouldn't be tired on the drive home, and so she could get on some of her college work. Yes, I was such a distraction that she couldn't focus on the homework while I was there :)

Well, I'd love to be able to get down there more often, but... Well, this job that I had landed with TeleTech kind of has been delayed a few times, and this latest delay has me now starting towards the end of November (the 28th) for training. So, I spent yesterday applying to some other places again ... partly because I want to replace my video card in my machine due to necessity (the fan on it died, and now it overheats within 10 minutes of doing anything graphical intensive at all) ... but also to build up the funds to be able to get the divorce paperwork started and finished. I'd rather have Victoria able to go out and get her own place like she wants and not have her have to pay some exorbitant amount of money because she's married and unable to claim homestead exemption on two houses. Also, because I want to make sure my new girlfriend sees that I really am serious about our relationship (along with her family that isn't too thrilled with me only being separated).

So, yea, now I just have to get some job somewhere and get everything underway as fast as possible ... I applied yesterday at staples for their computer repair desk, but also applied at publix ... yes... as a bagger, or even stock person ... I've also got some applications to finish off at a couple hospitals around here to do pretty much anything they will let me do ... I just want some steady income that will let me be able to live on my own comfortably without having to rely on Victoria, and also be able to eventually build up the cash to repair some stuff that needs to be fixed in this house ... like, my heater, which seems to have croaked yet again ... and my front door, which also ... seems to be falling apart ... again ... Oh well.